the secret of life
A child with an empty head, I came out of a womb with nothing to call mine and no connection to the past
A weakling that helplessly fussed about to get what it wants
Expected to rule the world and carry a name all around
Growing fast in moments, I smiled so much and didn't get to know how it feels to have a laugh
I never let a tear though I'm used to being having a cry and I've never asked why
My shadows dwell where I stand, unseen in it's glorious rage but always want to start a duel, the combination of a disastrous duet with an insatiable needs is imposed to be met
I'm no puppet yes, I'm no pet but why do I feel perplexed, like the air trapped to make a particular pitch when it's blown into a trumpet
Under a roof, inside a room wet I am with sweats of dreads from the thoughts that ain't mine, conscious, yes I am but shrunk and faded I felt
The outside world worn around my waist like a belt oh, guts all tightened and gets undone with the worries from the world I do not belong but had me submitted and my soul knelt
Choking troubles of others' wants tied like a noose around my neck, and with a bowed head, Who am I to vent
I've been purchased in every cent and with every dime i was lent, while earning pennies everywhere but leaving behind nothing for I only worth a few bucks to be spent
Haunted with a purpose I'm yet to understand, The true worth of a man is not weighed by what he has but by what he has become
What makes a machete any different from what it hacks down
A serpent's head is as dangerous as it's tail
In a ghost town full of ghoul ol' souls, dare I ask what's real from what's reap and what's sow
Tis a mystery how one's hands get bloody for the monster he did not slay and in debt of what he did not owe
Desire influence lust and needs influence greed
Without a creed there's no manipulation
Without manipulation there's no fear
Without fear there's no power
There's a war within me that's yet to be won but condemn not my demons for I'll take no credits conquering them
When you can't seem to find where You're headed, one turns back to whence he came. like it's said
Alas, I hail from a place that bares me no return
As I sail and pave the waters to voyage through the hearts of the seas and guts of the oceans
Wandering the vasts of the earth seeking to uncover the secret buried deep for none to hold
Verily, it is easier to get lost than to be found
I am of water and blood with dreams and needs fixated to behold the secret of life and the wisdom that it holds
Through the rains of thirst and the thunderstorms of hunger and cold I strive and thrive
But, I've been adrift and exposed to an enemy of myself and of great adventure for it wreak havoc with doubts and affright to make one lose the sense of balance, peace and purpose
This enemy consumes it whole, the state of composure, as it lusts over my reasonings
I'm turning grey and haunted by the headful of the stories I'd been told and I feel less bold
As I lay bare in my very own despair while trampled in the murky muds of fear
I asked, why am I being cheated by life as it is said to be a give and take kind
Then a voice speaks aloud in my head asking how I've been evading death
And I become fully aware and everything went crystal clear that this defeat truly comes in a pair
It dawned on me and I finally come to an agreement with my inner self and realized that I've seen myself dying more times than I've lived
and also, life is never about what you make off it but what you make of it
A child with an empty head, I came out of a womb with nothing to call mine and no connection to the past
A grown man I'll leave this world with nothing to claim as mine but only the memories lived and passed on to accompany me and hold me tight
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