I'm just a fucking embarrassment.
Ya you heard what I said.
I know what I meant.
How can you be proud of me?
I ain't done shit to be proud of in reality.
Just taking up space.
Someday I'll leave this place.
It's impossible to keep up pace.
When I'm constantly losing face.
Sometimes I wish I could erase my face.
The monster in my head doesn't know peace.
He's such a controlling beast.
I've forgotten how to cry.
My tear ducts have run dry.
I've forgotten how to love.
It's such a horrible drug.
I've repressed more than I can remember.
I was fucked up long before that day in December.
Nothing good from me has ever grown.
Just died a thousand death's all alone.
I saw this coming from the start.
The first time someone broke my heart.
I'm not talking about being in love.
Each day my heart dies a little more.
I'm tired of being hurt and I'm not looking for your acceptance.
I've been treading water too long and I'm longing for the shore.
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