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The Thespian

Like a thespian cradled by the characters he once thought were beneath him; 
tricked under the spell of growth like a blanket 
fixated upon mommy and daddy's promises. 
He is a walking antique 
and a museum of fear 
dressed in neon; 
wounds put out on display 
treated like quirks or personality; 
like a classic car show, 
which paints his sleeve, as a throbbing gash 
of unwarranted company by ghosts seeping through cigarette smoke. 
At nights he cradles himself close to grain elevators 
in hopes to get stuck inside of an escape 
to look back on with pride. 
These are the times where we fail to realize 
our days don't just go back to the way trees take root, 
rising to the occasion of one's singular truth. 
Well, 
sometimes 'too little, too late' is just the right time 
but also where we go from here, 
depends on your take on mindless chance. 
Timing is everything in the grand scheme of going for what's yours. 
But I'm not grandiose enough to say what belongs to me 
in the first place anyway. 
So,  
I'll let them come as they are 
then eating myself alive 
in the secrecy of my own shadow.
 
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