I thought we had time;
Time to eat more of your food
Time to hold each other in embrace
Time to say many I love you
Time for many many marriages
Time to carry my kids on your back
Time to celebrate my cousins
Time to be a proud mother
Time to be a proud aunt
Time to celebrate you in life
Time to say a big thank you to older you
I thought we had time that we didn't
Had I known your time is almost up
I would 've told you how much I love
I would have told you till I exhaust the words
I would 've spent more time with you
And not think tomorrow would be more appropiate
I would have given you in bits
And not think until it's substantial
Nothing can be substantial with you now
Not even us you have left behind
Our hearts is not the grave you lay
It's an abyss of darkness where your
head pops up from now and then
I'm lost in myself
I'm lost in the wretched hearts
of my cousins
I'm lost in the wrecked heart of your sister
I'm lost in the sullen eyes of your husband
I'm lost and do not want to be found
Like everyone else, I'm dying in instalment
To meet you again someday
Like everything else, if the lord permits
With this new hope, no goodbyes
Only see you again.
©leodavon
L