I lost you.
and it's unbearable.
cold even.
almost cruel.
in denial yet there's so much Red.
so much bad.
going deeper in darkness.
finding beauty in the dark.
seven stages of grief yet I stay with denial.
a loneliness that consumes me.
it shudder my bones.
a constant ache.
zombified.
I lost my way home.
yet nowhere leads to you.
the cold has ate my heart.
broken.
battered.
bruised.
I laugh hysterically at the pain.
such sweet pain.
I laugh while torn maimed in tears.
mauled by guilt.
dreaming of what's not and what's real.
yet I close my eyes I see you.
my tears never dry in my dreams.
my endless nightmares of you.
my horrid screams.
the ache in my chest.
the choke in my breath.
I ache for you.
a part of me that left.
yet I love you.
I can't let you go.
a part of me died.
when you left.
there was no time for goodbye.
no time to let you go.
yet I die when I'm awake yet live just to close my eyes.
barely existing.
barely living.
just cause you died.
©darkdeity
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