i write these words as i sit and try to understand the ones that you spoke, i here every one of the. but cannot grasp the point i dont know what to say, is this a joke?
i try so hard to show you and youJust turn your head and completley butcher eveything while talking over what i said i dont know how to love you cuz mo matter what is true it gets turned around on me and im blamed for things you do, i tell you that im sorry if i have hurt you in some way but you escilate the situation and ignore evrything i say, theres no way for me to connect to someone so closed off yoy are always right and i am always wrong you tell me i shouldnt have been there on that careless night and to be completeley honest you are 100% right, i shouldnt have openes all the doors and i shouldnt have begged you to stay i shouldnt have wditin all thos poems for someone who just pushes away , i shouldnt have said all thos words its not like they mean a damn thing to someone who hurts me without remorse and acusses me of the craziest things i shouldnt of named a star after you i guess you think enough of yourself as a matter of fact these words i am saying right now burn me like i am in hell, i shouldnt of gave you the benifit of the doubt and let you talk to me first and i shouldnt have thought id have a chance when its my turn you have no concern i shouldnt have belived one word that you said and my ears should have not lied to my eyes i know bery will what was going on there i forgave you but still i despise, i should have not thought yoy were real or mentioned how vulnerableni was i should have juat bought a nice car went home and forgot about love, but thats not what happened i made my decision and i want to thi k i made the right one but this is not what i see as civil its like jerry springer live 101, so put down the gaurds and put down your vises lets be honest from here and forget all thr crisis cuz at the enx of the day ill say it o ce more im tryi g so hard but i can walk out that door if im not resoected and you keep this going you will be uo shit creek and there wont be no rowing so stop this at once im not gonna beg i can love you again dont be a rag ive done nithing to you and ive loved through times that should have left you standing alone on thin ice i wont say im wrong but i will say im sorry and if that dosnt work your next fiance is calling!
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