laying here on this chair at this window o know so dam well I have become comfortable to the uncomfortable way I have to sit..
feeling the hot air I only wished would be cool with a little breeze you see.
like the way it feels when the leaves are falling in the fall that's the best smell this earth has ever made
every day you wake to a fresh new start it's like the earth gets wiped clean while you sleep this sounds about bit corny blame it on the fact that hat my soul is dressed in pink it lives all the souls of anything girly
I'm just a girl in this woman body that has to preform the tasks of a man
and will strive to do the best of that task everytime I attempt to complete the task at hand...
so in essence what we have here lol is not a failer to communicate but the complete opposite this is me telling you plain for the whole world to see I'm just like the rest of the girls you meet exspect my walls are just a bit taller and there is more then one..
this is nothing personal it's just something that happened that I cannot reverse
let me finish telling you what one must know about another in order to move past the stage of introduction
when you look at me I can't tell you what you would see when I look at me I see this woman who is not that pretty a woman who can barely stand to look herself in the face so I just avoid staring myself in the eyes for that long period of time
I see a woman with the soul of a girl who just want to be free to fly in whatever direction she chooses to fly
I see a woman who on the inside scream and crey like a child but on the side you see I see me being as strong as a woman can possibly be taking all the shit that this fucked up world can throw at me and still walking with my head high with my crocked pride that I refuse to give
I see a woman who will endure the worst kind of hell before I let myself bow down to anyone I know will feed off my stupidity I will not ask them for a damn thing I will keep fucking walking if that is what is necessary
when I close the door right behind me the tears will pour like the faucet in the sink..
I see a woman who is so ashamed of what she has let herself become. that I try to wash away the way it feel like the dirt the earth put on you when you roll in the grass
I say I'm not scared of no one or nothing truth is I'm scared of the tiniest shit well I'm scared of everything I'm not dense I know that everything means something even the smallest a action could be the biggest something to someone so I take nothing for granted
I am a woman who actually see this world and all these people for what it purpose really is I know that each of us has a story that is far greater then all others I also know that no of us really matter we are just a speck that can be wipe clean wiped out at any second and never question the why you and me could be. the strongest that's two specks could be because I already know your waters are deeper the the average person you meet you think the same way as me
you see every action for the soul purpose it's trying to teach the emotion this action needs you to feels
you already know that you are in your last transition you will only be reincarnated one more time
what you didn't know was that your transition had not been completed because you hadn't found me I'm am your missing key I. the answer you need just like you are my final piece you are all I need to fully transition form my past toy future i.eant to be reincarnated with you to spend my last given life with you as my partner my friend we will be the strongest you have ever known we will fall hard but never let it die we will get a good many years but in the end it will not be enough we will not want to let our time pass we will be what they call true soulmates to the rest of the world we will look to be nothing more then normal bute and you will no that we have found something that was never meant to be found something that will bind us together from thos world to the next weree and you will meet once again and fight side by side and love jus tas hard you wait and see mark these words for your memory know on this day this is what I'm tapping to you and when meet in the world that is past this one you will say to me do you remember r that poem you wrote I thought you was writing just for me it was all true but one then I will say to you what could I have said that wasn't true we are standing here talking today and you will say we were not strangers beginning our journey we were already soulmates who was strong from many life before you just don't remember and my friend I will smile when I look in your loving eyes and saying with my on words you are absolutely right we go back life's and world's together no other energy could pry our souls apart...
Angela Oaks
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