Then & Now Then I was begging for crumbs of attention, Counting your…

Then & Now

Then

I was begging for crumbs of attention,

Counting your promises like coins in a broken jar.

“Trust me,” you said. I believed it.

I bent, I broke, I tried to retrace every wrong I did.

My heart was a 24/7 hustle for your love.

Now

I’m done auditioning.

Yati ngeke usalungisa — and I’m okay with that.

No more chasing Wi-Fi signals that never connect.

Kubuhlungu, yes, it hurt…

But pain taught me how to block, not beg.

Then: “Please don’t leave.”

Now: “Don’t bother, nje.” 😌

Then: I waited in the fire alone.

Now: I’m the silver fox in my own sky.

Lone wolf, but no longer lost.

Then: I survived you.

Now: I’m surviving for me.

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