Everyday I feel so unappreciated with all these mixed feelings .
I bet if I disappear for a while then everybody would see the difference .
Everyday I feel weak but I don't say it , I just feel it .
Everybody think my life good , but they don't know how it was from the beginning .
Can't change the past right ? I'm still trying to figure out how I'm supposed to live with this .
And because I didn't yet , my future is going out of business .
Everybody in my face when they see something that they missing .
But ain't nobody showing love when it needs to be given .
And it's coo though , I don't need it anyway .
Cause the love that I need is with my happiness & they both locked away .
And too many of ya'll be lying so I gotta keep my distance safe .
I feel like if they knew what I knew then they would appreciate me everyday.
I feel like they tryna take a goal from me that I haven't reached yet .
And it's crazy cause I'm not going to stop until I reach it .
They feel like I owe them but I don't owe them a damn thing .
Life is what you make it , so I'm trying to make it better for me .
Making it better for me is what they can't see .
Just know when I get through this storm that I'm in , everybody gone hate me .
Cause I'm a make sure I shine so hard , I'm a be that goal that they trying to reach .
I'm a make life look so easy , that the hard times was just a dream .
They say that they know me , but not in reality .
Cause in reality , They don't really know nothing about me .
©dejalaraye
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