Well here I go again twisting my thoughts
Thinking about lessons in life i was taught
I learned the hard way wish someone else could see
This life of mine just how bad it could be
Im not sure really why things were like they were
Mistake alot of them thats for sure
Struggling through a marriage without true love
From the start
Didn't last long before we would part
Then again a relationship that would fail
Seem you cant do love from a jail
So now here i am trying again
To make life better for me and him
The shitty price that i paid you see
Got me struggling to get though every day
Not everything is always bad i no
But ive been down some roads that cost you know
Seems that the price was i lost my soul
When I figured out where and why
I had a extremely high price In life to pay
The hardest thing i feel
is that things never changed
The time spending, me and my kids
I cant change the path weve taken or where ive been
Just trying to say alot mistake i was making
Im sorry for not being there for you
And your grown now NOT much for mom to do
But ill alway carry guilt in my soul
It haunts me daily
you kids
Just dont know
I miss you guys and my grandchildren too
I wish i could spend more time with you
So we move on and do the best i can
I know that when you guys look back please try to see
Mom did the best please BELIEVE me
I love u guys and alway will
I hope someday the pain will heal
©tinamarie
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