no matter what has went on through each every day
with no selfish thought, only for you to be happy I pray
I have lived to see my last Holiday to be alone
smoking a cigarette hoping not to postpone
they said my lungs will rapidly begin to fail
to the ocean I will go and at last sail
out away from all the hate that stains the earth
wondering what was my life ever really worth
you have had my heart from the first glance
silly for me to think we had a chance
filled our veins with a toxin of our choice
can still feel you and hear your voice
take a second to wipe away the tears
knowing I failed you through these years
cause if not I would still be by your side
would have married you but you lied
told me you loved me and that you did care
got ran over and you only gave a disgusting glare
sorry I look and walk the way I do
I appologize couldn't walk away as the man you knew
I envy the man who next to you gets to lay
only for your happiness, this I pray
©Charles Du
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