I write poetry as if it were a slam
because everyday a different song represents who I am...
nobody really understands.
my friends say I'm complaining..
probably because they aren't even my true friends..
everybody chooses to ignore me
pardon?
well you see,
I've had a rough life so far and I'm only 12
I would really rather be 11
then my responsibilities would have ended
even though I don't have it bad
it would still be nice to know that you don't think of me the way I say in my head..
huh?
I'm being more honest with how I feel
so be wary that what I say is what I wish
I think I need you in my life
and you certainly need me
you cry and I'm there
you die I'll sure as hell be there...
if I can ignore these thoughts I have in my head
what?
that's what I'm saying!
watch what you say about me
cause one day I'm gonna snap
and it will be your fault...
I cry myself to sleep
hopefully no one's noticed..
my dad says I should let it slide...
but?
but anxiety consumes me...
some days I can't even get out of bed
and some days I issolate my self completely
what do you do for fun?
fun? well I like to put my head against a wall and let music play around me...
I really wish more people understood me
or maybe that's to much to ask?
Love?
yes ok, I love her!
and that can't be denied but I can't tell her my problems that'd be rude...
I prefer to listen to others problems rather than crying about my own
while I lie to my parents when the ask if I'm ok!
©aloharose_
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