I don’t know who I am right now
but it’s not who I used to be
I cry throughout the winter months
until the summer tries to heal me.
Another day of crying out loud
and another day of pain my extended family chooses not to accept that I truly am insane.
Who the fuck do they think they are to say that they’ll pray for me
that God would work a miracle
but I’d have to wait and see.
For twenty years I tried so hard
to be the lawyer expected of me
but I find that I cannot treat my illnessno matter who or what I may be.
Well I’m not waiting any longer
as my wife and children live in shit
but if my extended family actually helps then that will be the end of it.
©ronvdm777
July 2020
©ronvdm777
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