So yesterday in asked my sister if she wanted to help me at a job site. Painting inside a house. It was her day off, so she came with me to work.
She told her dad, and texted our mom that she was going to help me paint. Our mom texted her and told her no, she can't go with me to work, but little did she know we already left the house and was almost at the job.
My sister texted her, why couldn't she go with me and make some money. Our mom replied, Nena is bad news and that I'm not what she thinks I am.
To hear our mother text that to my sister made me so upset. Upset that our mother tries to label me as BAD news, no good, and looked at til now that I haven't changed one bit. It made me resent our mother even more.
Not only for how she treats me, but now to try to turn my sister against me is a whole different story, The kind of hate towards our mother for what she is doing, has taken me to another level of resentment.
It's one thing that our relationship didn't work out, but for her to try to keep my sister from me pushes me to want to fight for my sister.
My sister is 22yrs. old and she has a mind of a little girl. She doesn't know how to drive, afraid to go outside the house if it's not work, she doesn't know how to feel comfortable In her own skin, due to our mother's control and what she thinks is right for my sister.
Her and I both know our mom is seriously sick in her head. Her view and opinions on life is distorted and it's her way, one way or no way.
My sister admitted that when she was younger, she did believe everything our mom would tell her about me, but as she got older she realized that our mom was the one that was bad for the things she said and done.
I don't need to tell my sister anything for her to see the truth.
What our mom is doing has affected me in ways that made me stronger.
I believe my mom finds me as a threat when it comes down to my sister.
The reality is, I'm not trying to turn my sister against our mother like how our mother is doing with her towards me. I'm trying to teach my sister something that wasn't taught to me by our mom.
The damage that our mom did to me growing up lead me to believe things that didn't help me as an adult. The love and confidence I should have, I didn't have until later on as I got older.
I don't want my sister to have to learn about herself later rather than sooner..
I don't want her to go through life wondering, questioning, not knowing who she is as a person.
These are my thoughts of yesterday...
©mamacita
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