I'm tired of feeling numb
I pinch my self to see if blood would come
am I even real
because of the contant regret I feel
I laugh
I sing
but not one word ever sink in
numb to a point i feel nothing
thinking of this constant numbness I feel
they say that time will heal
but why I'm still holding a knife made of steel
this cant be real
I lay an think of it all
to think of making that call
the pain has filled me up
I erase the thoughts of it it all
my heart needs to take a chill
wondering if I should take that pill
why should I keep pushing
while my blood stop pumping
cause my world has finally start crumbling
©audreanna
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