Reminiscing,
i cry every night but tonight im tryna act different,
I wanna be happy, but what can i feel when my hearts missing.
I try some self luving - i can't / i swear i ain't tripping,
i stay up all night,
sad hours coz i ain't nigga enuf,
i stay up reminiscing.
Harming,
self harm, coz i feel i have power over myself
i got the blade in hand, i can do this myself
i want help, but ain't nobody i have besides myself
everybody can see she hurting, they walk past ^ an unwanted item on a shelf.
Surviving,
i ain't got no hope in this world - but a youngin' still striving
heart feels at war, but im here / still thriving
thinking about my sins, is there a heaven or hell?
coz everyone dying.
Luving & lusting,
tryna give my all, but i ain't got any for me
wanna hear u talk, but at the same time i want u in me,
i swear i ain't selfish, but im tired of luving
luving people, they ain't stick around they just lusting - shit.
healing,
i feel at peace with myself, im healing
get a blaze, pass a blunt, we healing
have some purp, rise above im healing
any nothing healthy you can do, so i gotta do them drugs, coz im just tryna heal
feeling,
i can't help but think about you all the time,
you & me making love in my mind
i get attached, break my heart it's about time
tell me you love me, make me believe, im inlove with your lies.
P