to be alone.
to know a emptiness.
a void.
the fear of losing someone who you can't do without.
this hollow feeling.
this haunting moment of opacity.
yet you die in the sake of love.
just to find peace.
just to find warmth again.
yet bitterness comes for you.
it tears you from limb to limb.
to feel special that's all we have.
yet it is taken ripped from our fingers.
yet something as trivial as love is our only escape.
we hold to it like a new born babe.
we clinged to such things.
we dream of something more.
to be something, somebody.
yet it's never enough.
yet we dream of such fantasies till there's nothing irrelevantly there.
yet dreams of you I tried to find my escape.
to live on such hopeless romance just to die again in your arms.
a dream.
such blindness.
I'd follow you into the gutter.
just to find peace.
just so you would be my peace.
just to watch you leave.
yet love a disease just to make me stay.
kisses like honey they haunt me.
yet you are gone.
I'm alone.
with the thought of will you come back?
or am I forced to face the horrid reality that's eluded me?
yet such darkness remains.
to kill me so obscene.
yet I die again and again just so you'd love me.
yet I know loneliness.
it lurks to my skin every night.
the cold like black ice.
haunting my body to shutter.
to want you again.
to feel love once you get on the other screen.
to act and ache like you'd hadn't forgotten me.
knowing All too well.
to know I chose to be under your spell.
yet I love anyway.
I love wholeheartedly.
jealousy a strong suit.
yet I can't stop thinking about you.
you're in my dreams.
you're the Dread in nightmares erotically.
yet I can not live without you.
and that kills me.
yet I'm in ruins knowing me and you are meant to be.
©darkmocha
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