I don't know if we've already met
But what I know is we'll meet
If not now then someday
I've written to you twice before
And today I'm writing again
In my previous write-up
I told you about my dark world
About my sadness and pain
I wrote all that in tears
I was so worn out but hey
I have a son now
He changed all that
The love I feel for him is beyond this world
These days I smile all the time
I'm happy
He makes me so happy
My baby boy changed me
From mara to sweet
He's my strength and my all
He's everything I've ever wanted
An answered prayer
I know right now you'd probably be wondering
Wondering about his dad
Well there's nothing to worry about
He was never part of my life
He isn't now and he will never be
So when you finally come
Just know my son will always come first
And I'd want you to love him as much as I do
I'd want you to treat him as your own
Ooh I didn't tell his name
He's Hawi
For I'm lucky to have him
I'm blessed to be his mom
He saved me you know
He saved me from my self
I no longer self harm
The voices in my head were silenced
By his smile
Suicidal thoughts no longer visit me
For I have a reason to live
And ooh the monsters
The monsters that were under my bed
Well guess what, I sold the bed
So dear future husband
You'll find me already happy
Please don't try make me sad
Please don't come and try hurting me
For I've already been there
And there's no way I'm going back
I've build my walls so high
It won't be easy to get to me
But I know you won't give up
Not until you do
So I'm patiently waiting for you 😊
©mara_pain
It's not always about pain.
©mara_pain
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