At first I was scared
This new journey freaked me out so much
I worried about everything and anything
How to bath you
Feed you
Carry you
Take care of you
I didn't know how I'd handle you
But the moment I held you in my arms
Everything fell into place
I just found my self doing everything with no fear
Motherhood isn't easy you know
It comes with a lot of commitments
A lot of sacrifices
Waking up 100 times to change your diaper and feed you Not going out just indoors taking care of you Disconnecting from the world outside to focus on the world inside
My whole world right beside me
At times I find my self staring at you as you sleep
Admiring your pretty little face
Those tiny little hands and yeah that pretty smile you always have when you are deep asleep
I hate it when you cry especially after those injections make me cry too
When i can't calm you down and you've refused to feed, mommy's heart breaks a million times feeling so helpless
And when you cry for no reason
I get worried maybe you are sick
Or in pain
Mothers worry a little too much you know
But that's the beauty of it all
I don't regret having you son
You are my sunshine
My treasure
And it's my pleasure being your mommy
Though the pressure is too much
I'd still choose you all over again
At times I doubt if I'm a good mom
But deep down I know I'm the best
To me you'll always come first
God gave me you
He trusted me to be your mom
And I'll do my best not to fail Him
I love you so much baby Hawi.
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