To Myself
To my body,soul and heart
I've put you through pain
I allowed you to be consumed by hate
You went through hell
When I look in the mirror
All I see is horror
I see the body I've starved
The cuts I made with blades
Fake smiles and eyes that are bloodshot
The eyes that is unable to sleep most night
Consumed by insomnia,hate and loneliness
The tears and pretenses
The lips that told lies
"I'm fine" being the anthem
The mouth that opened up and screamed
Sobbed at nights until my voice becomes hoarse
My deafening silence
A body punished my depression
The Emptiness,the mess I became
The wreck I am,the havoc I caused
The shame and disgust I feel
I'm sorry I made you bleed
I'm sorry I made you cry
Now I want to try
Let's start afresh
As I step into a new age
I need to be free
I have to find me
The best gift I can give myself
Is love,self love
©humble
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