I went on a date tonight.
The sky opened up,
chuckled just once,
then through up a thumb.
I guess for good luck.
Funny this universe knows me.
I truly hadn't noticed.
To busy drowning myself,
attempting to be unimportant.
To be less than someone
who's wanted.
But, this date.
I wonder if I really wanted it.
It seemed to go well enough.
We had enough in common.
But, still.
There was no sun.
No spark.
No fire.
No desire to be more with her.
I never called her again.
Instead I stayed tethered to my dark mind.
Made dark simply due to being,
deprived of light.
To being lost in a sea of unlike minds.
I never knew self could exist,
absent knowing who or what self is.
That my mind could morph into someone I'd never begin to understand.
That I myself,
would become,
unlike.
©lamarcus12
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