Dear girlfriend
We've not been friends like we should
I haven't had time to understand you
Nor appreciate you enough
I've lived a life of regrets
A life full of bitterness
A life covered with pain
Pain from a past I can't change
Pain from people who hurt me
My lack of forgiveness made me miserable
It made me hate my self to a point
I craved for death
A point I began hurting my self
And torturing my self so bad
I was full of hate
I hated my past
Everything about it
I hated
Love wasn't part of my vocabulary
I never found anything fascinating about me
The hate that I had for the world
Was beyond this world
It's funny how I was always gloomy
Pushed everyone away
Then blamed them for leaving me
I was so toxic to everyone around me
Including my self
But today with a pure heart
I make peace with my past
I make peace with everyone and everything
That hurt before
I forgive everyone who made me cry
Who made me bitter
Who made feel less human
Those who destroyed me
I forgive you all
Not for your sake
But for my sake
Because I finally want to be happy
I want to live a free life
Free from the burden I once carried
Free from hate and bitterness
Free from pain and misery
I just wanna smile
Freedom feels so great
By letting go I've let God take control
You know darkness and light can't stay
in the same room, one must give space
And this time round light won
Ephesians 5:8, John 12:46
Dear self
You are amazing
A super woman
Stronger than you can imagine
You are beautiful and wonderfully made
I love you so much
Happy.girlfriend's DAY😊
©mara_pain
Don't let pain define you.
©mara_pain
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