today...
well...
I told mum about how I always feel...
like how numb I get..
I'm always tired..
I feel like I can't do anything..
my body is too heavy to lift to weak to carry..
I told her About how demotivated I feel..
like I'm ever sick and I can't get cured..
I told her that I get this every day..
l'm always sleepy.. Even When I wake up...
I told her it's because of stress,I can relate...
and lastly..
I told her not to let this feeling stay for long but to acknowledge it's existence..
and get it out...stay motivated..
and you know what she said?
' why do you always feel like this?' and I couldn't answer.. I was afraid it would break her even more..
I would have said
' I'm depressed.. this is what depression is... and for the side dish, sucidal thoughts.. that might turn out to be later on missions.'
©kisorio
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