I want to scream
scream and yell and shout
until my lungs burst
I want to cut myself
rip my body apart
to punish it
to punish it for being so fat
for not being like them
not desirable enough
My belly hanging out
my hips muffin top
my saggy upper arm fat
my continental sized thighs
I want to scar my body
until I am covered
to show it what it deserves
for leaving me this way
I will no longer eat
rarely just for survival
but I can't live like this
The fat friend
the one to talk to
if you want info
on my prettier skinier
friends
I want to rip my flesh
into pieces
dirty fat blood
to drop down my body
flooding a pool around
myself
Peice by peice
pull away my fat
until I'm nothing
until I'm just air
until I'm no longer
a waste of space
the fat friend
I want nothing
my body to be nothing
weigh nothing
I will not be happy
until I weigh zero
©melodyal
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