My minds trapped in a loop,
Thinking of everything I had,
Fear takes over my body,
Hurting far worse then just being sad,
No rest when I sleep, or dream,
It's a whole other universe of you in there,
I can't even convince my dreams,
To lie to me about you not being here,
The shakes plague my body,
For all the wrong reasons I can't breath,
You once took my breath away,
So now I'm suffocating as you leave,
My heart still races but no excite,
It's the panic of this inevitable unknown,
I don't want to learn to move on,
My heart's not ready to be alone,
So much was supposed to happen,
I thought the light was getting bright,
It felt like you were happy with me,
So much time lost in a single fight,
I stand here on the other side hoping,
That both ends are stilling trying to pull,
So we might find our way back to each other,
And somehow learn from this time so cruel,
I'm in autopilot trying to regain control,
Knowing some of the best advice is hard to hear,
I have to accept that your not here with me,
And this is my life, no longer an irrational fear.
©justin_ur
J