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Trauma

I once experienced the wind 
of words coming up to the 
curtains of my windows, 
playing a thousand words before 
it turns into a hailstorm, 
because, poetry, 
is clay, you can shape
 it however you like. 
Events are sculpters of
 my words, i can live 
up to the word 'trauma' 
forever and create 
poems with it.
I've experienced 
a nightmare before, 
one that made me afraid
 that the monster in the closet 
was already in the bed, 
whispering sleep paralysis 
in Chlorosis. 
'You are 
the 
monster..'
I hate sleeping with 
the lights on again.
I have experienced hell
under your heaven, 
though you have seen the 
biggest of demons
being the littlest angels.
Perhaps, your words have no bones, 
but they are strong enough 
to break my heart pieces by pieces.
I sought solace in a bizz-art 
of my loneliness, yet the sound
of an apocalyptic flashbacks
breaks the silence,
almost like a lullaby
sang to me each night.
I might say i already 
threw the weight of 
a haunting past in 
a lost land of regrets, 
but i'm still making a 
boulevard out of those 
bad decisions, hoping it fills 
the asphalt cracks you 
made along the way.
©sars.