As I cry at night alone in bed
She creeps in quietly, creeps into my head.
Knowing I'm in pain, knowing she can win
Knowing I'm quit close to my fin
And this is what she says, what she says in the end.
"I know you're pain, how you cry in the darkness. How you know you're alone, but I'll show you how to harness the pain deep inside. I know it sounds scary, I know you want to hide. But tonight I'm gonna win so don't even try to act like you have some pride. I'm here to give you the courage to die"
I lay there crying, and I try to lie
Saying no, I do want to be alive
Saying I don't need to trust
I don't need to love
That all it is, is lust
Fleeting like a dove
I'm gonna be alright, I'm gonna be okay
Knowing deep down inside I no longer can keep her at bay
Knowing this to, this is what she had to say.
"So you think you can lie when I'm inside your mind?? I know your every thought, feeling, so don't even try. You know who I am, I am suicide. My sister pain called and said it was your time. Don't try to act strong, don't try to act cool. We know you had enough, don't play me for a fool. I know you have thought of me, I know you are curious. So just follow me into the mysterious "
But please don't you know that I will be missed
And be called weak and selfish, get the gist
I've thought about you, I've given you a lot of thought
I stay here for my family, not me, that's why I fought
But I am getting tired, and people always move on
I'm not that hard to get over, trust I'm a pawn
You make a lot of sense, but I don't want to transfer the pain
That's what they say, not an end, just transfer and claim
But she knows what's she's doing, so she picks her lane.
"That's what that say, but if your gone who cares at the end of the day? It's time to think of you, not them okay? I'm here to comfort, I'm here to plead. That you please let me have the lead. I would never lie to you, just make you realize. I could take away the pain, c'mon visualize."
I sit back and think on what I heard
Mesmerized by her tempting words
So I just lay here, crying alone in bed
I guess in the morning, you'll know what road I chose to tread.
©lonely365
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