tried of pretending

I'm getting tried of pretending I'm stronger then I am when in reality I'm torn apart inside I'm broken all I feel is pain I can't even remember how being happy actually feels sure I can pretend to be happy but it's not the same I will still feel empty inside I don't think I can fake it till I make it its to tiring it's deceiving I shouldn't pretend I'm okay when in reality I need help I need someone there to say everything will be better even if I don't believe it in the moment hmmm I guess being honest isn't just better for me but in reality it's less tiring it's less deceiving it's less pain it's being true to others and true to myself.
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