It's getting bad again
Feeling my heart break
In to a thousand pieces and
There's nothing I can do
Wanting to cry but no tears come out
So I just stare into the dark
Feeling like dying
Hating my self for reasons I don't even know
I feel lost
I'm breaking as each minute passes
The voices in my head get loud
Loud enough to awaken the monsters
The monsters under my bed
I thought I was healing
I thought this nightmare was over
But look at me now
I'm so miserable
The battles I thought I won
Are back to finish me
I hate my self
For I put my self here
I'm responsible for this pain putting me down
Damn I need razors
I just wanna cut and free this pain
It's too much for one person
Somebody help
Save me from my self
The voices are loud
I Can't even feel my heart beat
Everything is failing me
I've been so alone
Bottling up my frustrations
Scared they'll point fingers again
For I got my self here
I'm breaking my own heart
I'm destroying my self
It's out of control
Feels like I'm trapped in my head
I can't stop venting
But it's not coming out
I'm destroying my body for a peace of mind
A peace of mind that I'll never get
Just pieces reminding me
How much of a failure I'm
Every cut reminds me I'm not good enough
I'll never be
No matter how hard I try
I'll never be enough
I'll never fit in
No one loves me
No one cares
My scars only explain a loosing battle
An empty soul
A hopeless woman
Tired being
Forsaken child
Abandoned friend
Miserable sister
And a good for nothing person
Loved by no one
Coz seriously who will ever love such a person?
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain
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