They are days I just feel tired
I walk but am at same place
I jog but am at same place
I run but am at same place
I crawl but am at same place
I look for myself in the mirror but no reflection
I try to sleep but 4 am am still blinking
Everything I want is not in my way
Everything I touch surely it dies
Everything I ever dreamed of is never come true
Everyone is telling me to do and what they want
Everyone wants something from me
Everyone needs an explanation as if I owe them one
Sometimes I argue with voices in my head
Sometimes I just want everything to be over
Sometimes I am tired of fighting over things I can't change or win
Sometimes I want to cry but I can't
Sometimes I just want to share but I fail
I realized I am human I accept it
I have wounds and scars on my soul and heart
Pain can be gone but these scars are a reminder
I have to keep on moving despite being tired
I try , sometimes I fail
I try sometimes I succeed
I get used and left afterwards
I am an option to others
I am a priority to others
But what to say it's twisted paradise
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