The women within me. What to come out. But she is in fear of being judged for who she is. So she hid in her shield. Hopefully, no one sees her. They try to break her. But she hid her feelings, so they wouldn't see the true her. When she cries. She was hiding tears, so he wouldn't see her. She had no feeling inside of her. The only thing she wanted was to be herself. Not afraid to express herself. When she looks in the mirror? She sees a woman who has been broken too many times. Every time she takes one step closer. She lived, ever feeling behind. Too, she doesn't feel anything. She just keeps hiding herself from the world. But the person they don't see. Sometimes she takes a peek at herself. Sometimes she sees herself, but sometimes she doesn't. She questions herself all the time. She is making me second-guess myself. But she is not true to herself. She is two people in one. One is a victim. I have to fight to be myself. But she was scared to let herself go. But she put a shield to protect herself. Now it all coming back. But one thing she can save is to reach for the star. Then I am this Survivor. I fought hard to bounce back to myself. Trying to put myself first. So I can see myself the way I was before you all this drama. But you try to break her over and over. The Angry you put on me. Put me in a place that I don't trust myself. Now I am afraid to love myself. Because my heart is afraid to love. So she held back her feelings. When she feels herself that minute. Then my heart says you remember. But you feel the pain of the past. That piece of me you took. That I am trying hard to keep her safe. To hope one day she can look back. Not worrying about tomorrow. That she knows she is okay. Try to build back herself. It will take one chapter of time. Hopefully, I can look back with no pain. That my heart is stronger than ever. Then I can love myself again. To live the life without fear and anger. Working on myself is never easy. But I won't live with any doubt. Because I am more than that. When I get where I propose to be. I will be looked down on true love. I just have to see the true me. Walk with a positive mind. Never looked back. You are in a good place now. So I can be myself again. Living the life I took back. Without you put fear in my heart. I will love myself again. This journey I am on is for me. I just have to stay on the path. My heart will be opened to love myself again. She is free to be her without fear.
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