Unapologetically Me
The only change I will make is for the better for me I will not apologize for who I am nor who I am destined to be and that is unapologetically me from the color of my hair to the size of my waist whether I choose to wear makeup or present my lovely bare skin or my face I have no need to apologize to anyone unless of course there is some ill-will that I've done oh I know I cannot go back and I cannot change the past but I can definitely look forward to Future unapologetically for me you see I do have my days am I nice when uncertainty and a touch of fear tries to embrace me so tight that I can't hear what God is telling me and that is when I fight even harder because God told me from the beginning to be unapologetically me for who among you can cast a stone my way we are all sinners like it or not that is the truth to be told and I personally and unapologetically holes no one is better than anyone else oh I know sometimes we live in our little bubbles and we Proclaim how much better we are then someone else because there taking the bus they're not driving the latest Mercedes Jaguar Cadillac charger oh yes I love the fast cars but the truth of the matter is it makes no difference as long as you can get from point A to point B that is all that matters and that makes me unapologetically me yes it is true I love clothes and shoes and Jewelry weather costume or what is considered real diamonds and other gyms but they don't make me who I am if they did how shallow would I be 2 place my words on jewelry oh and believe me I've had my share I've donned my fingers with blue topaz and diamond rings emesis but I knew then what I know now those are temporal things material things and while they are beautiful they could never takes a place the very soul of me no I will not apologize for being eccentric or what some have labeled me to be a gypsy like Gypsy Rose sleeves well that's okay that's fine with me it only proves the uniqueness of my personality I find nothing appealing about being arrogant or conceited as a matter of fact I find those to be sad sad soles who consider themselves above all others come on let's be real no one is any better did anyone else and I'm not saying this because I'm including myself although I have been called high maintenance buy men because of the way that I used to dress especially working in the corporate world I had my little suits that match my shoes but I didn't pay a fortune for them but I took pride yes it is true I love clothes and shoes and jewelry with a costume or what is considered real diamonds and other Jim's but they don't make me who I am if they did house shallow would I be to place my worst on jewelry oh and believe me I've had my share I've done my fingers with blue topaz and diamond ring amethyst but I knew then what I know now those are temporal think material things and while they are beautiful they could never take the place of the very soul of me no I will not apologize for being eccentric or what some have label to meet to be a gypsy like Gypsy Rose Lee well that's okay that's fine with me it only proved the unique nice of my personality I find nothing appealing about being arrogant or can see it as a matter of fact I find those to be sad sad souls who consider themselves above all others come on let's be real no one is any better than anyone else and I'm not saying this because I'm including myself although I have been called high maintenance by men because of the way that I used to dress especially working in the corporate world I had my little suits that match my shoes but I didn't pay a fortune for them but I took pride in wearing them because you see I learned in high school while being a member of future business leaders of America and all those things have changed as far as seeking employment the impression elevation of completing an application online and including your resume let's just be honest about this process okay it's highly impersonal where do you see your application and resume goes who has the position that weeds through thousands and thousands of applications and resumes let's just face it or maybe it's just me but I miss the old days when you can go in and walk up introduce yourself give a firm handshake now your on a computer putting in 4 countless jobs and waiting and waiting don't call us we'll call you takes on a whole new meaning I still desire to make that call and inquire yes hello my name is Patricia Johnson and I submitted an application 4 customer service and I also submitted my resume and I'm just calling to follow up to see if you have received my application and my resume and the answer I get is that someone will call you once your application and resume has been fused and if you would be considered for the position and I say thank you very much for your time has a good chain and so there it is still nothing well I suppose we have to keep up with the time everyone is moving so fast children as young as 2 have phones in their hands and their operating them and they're playing games on them what happened to the good old days playing jacks hopscotch operation all of those good old board games monopoly I know they're still around and still clade every once in awhile but what are we sacrificing by living these types of lifestyles I've never considered myself better then anyone else that was instilled in me from a young age and just because I'm a be quiet or even seem a loose when I am amongst a crowd make no mistake about it I am observing and I am listening those are the two things that helped me decide with whom I would entertain in conversation because you see I really don't like to gossip so that would not be the group or that type of person for me some may say well you're judging well know what I'm doing is I am not going to participate in something that I find to be on the level of being two-faced because the same people that gossip about you behind your back I promise you they're smiling in your face remember that so now I'm on a totally different Journey I cannot call my brother Eric and confide in him something's like I used to when he was here now there was something that I just could not tell him because he would most likely get riled up so I didn't talk much about my relationships really not even with my mom but I did feel comfortable talking to my dad and just getting his advice if I was having some sort of issue with someone I was dating but I never really get my family too involved with knowledge of what was going on in my relationship unless of course it was positive but I never was one to go to my mom a my brother or my dad's when I had relationship troubles I just dealt with them and if I had a concern or two I might ask an opinion but usually it was a talk with my dad because Eric would probably want to go out and that's just say he knew people that didn't mind spending time in jail for that's just say setting someone straight for bothering me or treating me a certain way especially the stalker said I had at one time and of course he didn't know about the choker she passed away Plus I would never tell him about sat but he made it very clear to me once everything was over and I handled it myself he was a little bit upset with me he told me that I should have told him because he knew people that had no problem let's just say teaching someone a lesson and they had no problem spending a little time Behind Bars and they would do it for free and that's all I can review and actually I didn't want to know anyting further about his connections but it was good to know Betty has those type of friends on standby I am not the nicest person when someone I know who is under estimating not only my intelligence but my skills in my knowledge and it's been a long long time since I've used those skills that I have and I really don't want to have to use them again but understand that I will always be unapologetically me ◇♡☆
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