I post these pictures for the comments i get,
The "wow, you look great"
The "you've lost so much weight"
They make me feel like somehow, maybe i'm worth it.
They ask me my secrets
How'd i loose it so quick?
Embarrassed I lie and say
"I've changed my eating habits"
They nod and say "good job"
"keep it up"
"pretty soon you'll be a 10"
all i wanna do is curl up and be hidden again
I want to be known for who i am deep down
past the smiles and laughter and friends all around
down to my roots and straight through the ground
that's where the real me can surely be found
you'll see all my scars
all the tears i have cried
all the good and the bad
and the really hard times
after going that deep
after reaching the bottom
only then will you know
the very real problem
One day in my head will feel like forever
you'll be exhausted, and happy and confused all together
So if you dare come closer, to know whats underneath
just know that sometimes even I don't know me.
F