Times like this I feel vacant, struggling to face it. Faceing my thoughts in the face of my insecurities. Let me be honest, it only feels like that when it comes to you. Because I want something I can't have, like candy before dinner.
I wanna give you the best of me, would you respect me as a Man if I gave you any less than Me? But I can't have you, your off limits and the only way that would change is during those dream minutes that really feel like seconds. I want YOU! What I do not speak into existence will only fall by the waist side. So let me rephrase, I need YOU!
What can I say you live here, my mind that is. My thoughts and visions form a country and your the capital, a beautiful place it is. Like in Puerto Rico, but I call you San Ma. I want you, I need you, and yes I'm sure. I'm also sure I can't have you no matter how hard I try.
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