I loved him with all of me but I guess it wasn't enough
I cared so much but that so much wasn't enough
I was always there but it never added a thing
I thought I crossed oceans for him but it wasn't even a stream
Do you know what hurts the most
We lived together
Yes he was my husband
But everything I did wasn't good enough
He pretended to be strong
Just for the kids and i
He did everything to make sure we had everything
And forgot all about himself
I thought he was happy
I thought we made him happy
Like I'm here thinking to my self
What and where I went wrong
What did I do for him to do what he did to me to us
My inlaws blame me
And I blame me too
I just hate my self for letting my husband down
How didn't I notice his sadness
Depression and anxiety dealt with him as I peacefully slept beside him
He fought the monsters alone for all those years
I wish I knew
How I wish I knew this before now
What do I tell our kids
My better half killed himself
A part of me died with him
How I wish he left me for another woman
Maybe that wouldn't hurt this much
Why did he overdose on those pills
He was even under going therapy and I knew nothing at all
How I wish I'd turn back the hands of time
Damn I'd make things right and delete this part
How I wish I'd love him back to life
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