I have never been the type of to have just one person's attention.
no need to explain that last statement , everyone knows that a gothic, non religious , weird , introverted country girl type , is the type that will never for in .
I've came to terms many moons ago ...so no crying and mopping is descending from me nor my spirit
but sometimes I like to go back and remember the raw , steep and sometimes violent journey . the journey and the awaking moment that I knew the world wasn't my friend , companion , associate or something to trust ....actually it taught me it's sometimes ok to fear it. fear is acknowledgement , and acknowledgement is protection ...even if I can't see , I still have ears so the world's arugment is ruled out , makes no sense , I gave it more time to plea it's case and I'm annoyed and wasting my time ....sorry world , good fight but will never aquited .
I have to remember the harsh realities sometimes because it's easy to get lost in a fairytale and I end up letting my walls down ...and that's when everyone can hurt me...and for me , myself , I have no more time left to entertain anyone's Tom foolery.
I have never been the type to bring more to the table that i can carry , and I know that is the truth because I have felt the pain oh so many times when you trip and fall and glass dishes, mugs, appetizers are all getting unsteady.
so I only bring what I know I can handle , so why I am pushed and protted every time I turn the corner ? because the world is like a stove top and no one will tell you the heat is turned up high , so you burn yourself a million times til you learn to protect yourself and survive.
©scorpio
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