I wish I'd be happy
Even if it won't last long
I wish I'd be enough
Atleast to just one person
I want to feel like I matter
Even if I know I don't
I want to feel loved
Even if it's for seconds
I'm tired aki
I hate fighting tears
I hate acting okay
I hate faking a smile
No matter how much I try
Something always puts me down
Why doesn't it get better
Why is it always stormy
I'm tired of this life
What wrong did I do
Why I'm I struggling like this
I hate breaking down
I hate that I can't do anything about it
My happiness died at a very young age
And all was left of me was just bitterness
Just pain and misery
Anger and sorrow
I'm a mess
Hard to love
Hard to understand
Impossible to be with
I'm just a mistake
That everyone avoids
I'm no longer a person
Not anymore
I'm a problem
An example of what you shouldn't be
It's hard to explain what I'm actually feeling
Because I don't really understand
I don't know what's wrong with me
I don't even know why I'm crying
I feel like screaming
Cutting just to let it all out
I wanna run and never stop
Cry an ocean
Then drown my self in it
I wanna end it all
If only I'll succeed.
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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