She was in pain
All kinds of pain known to man
She tried to waste herself away with drugs
But no drug was strong enough to make her whole
She slept with different men
Men of all races
Just to fill that void in her life
That hole in her heart
That gap in her world
But none did
She drowned more and more
She cut, her blood providing a great sensation
Her body became a web of scars
But still nothing filled the void
She'd lock her self in
Cry her eyes out
Hoping she'd find comfort in her sadness
Hoping for peace in her wails
She wanted to feel alive
But no, the more the tried
The more she felt dead
It wasnt hard to opt suicide
It wasnt like it waa the first time she tried it
But this time she needed to succeed
She yearned to leave the wretched world
But didn't have the courage to
She imagined mama's cry
Felt mama's pain
And instead she hurt more
Thinking how much more she'd hurt more
But on second thought
It dawned to her that if her mom really cared
She would be with her
She would have realised she was drowning
She would make her life easier
So she thought of her little sister
She loved her so much and the thought of her hurting killed her
She got her strength
And decided one more time
She'd give life another chance
living was too painful but she didnt live through all this to die
She had to have a sunny day before she died
She couldnt do it alone
But she knew what she had to do
©magi
Words from my soul.
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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