untitled

I looked you in the eye.
those big ocean blue eyes and began to melt.
tears burned my brown eyes at the thought of leaving you.
words couldn't fall out like vomit.
as the first time I was completely vulnerable.
your angelic face held me hostage and I wanted to stay.
I wanted to kiss you.
to scoop you in my arms and not stop till I left you breathless.
but this passion was not behold to watchful eyes.
I wanted you.
and only you.
but we weren't lonely people.
I dreamt of you.
I needed you.
yet I couldn't say goodbye.
I couldn't say anything.
was it love because I got lost in the blue of your eyes?
or was it the fact that I was to frozen in time at the thought of you would always be here that made me paralyzed by the beauty staring back at me?
yet the words drowned in my head.
I didn't say goodbye.
I left a cliffhanger lingering in your mind.
yet I would think of you all the time.
that's when the dreams started.
my wet erotic fantasies of you that sprung to life.
every night I was haunted by the thought of I could have you.
doing the things that lovers do.
fuckin like strangers.
yet I still hear your screams.
the moans like music in my dreams.
as you remained wet and naked.
the way I liked you.
you look better with nothing on and just crawling into my bed.
the naughty things that played in my mind.
as I laid there every night getting fucked By the girl in my dreams as you invisibly left me rocked.
to love is to be doomed that is what I always say.
but you were the death of me.
I didn't care.
cuz all I wanted was you.
and only you
and there was a goodbye.
only just me and you.
©darkdeity