have i ever told you?
how i much i want to hold
.................................
to hold you until we are one
how i want you to smother me with kisses
until i cant breathe
how i want to share a bed with you
and you cuddle me till our souls combine
how i want to make love to you
until our colours combine
how i want to smile so much until my heart bleeds
how i want your heart to beat so fast that
you might lose life
how much i want to lose life with you
how much sacred i am when you show me love
that one day that love wont be for me
because i failed to love you enough
or
my loving is not the right way
or how i want you to teach me your love language
i want to learn it all
scared that you will realise that you deserve more
scared you will finally realise your worth
scared you will finally break because i am suffocating
scared to give you love because you might realise how my love does not compare with yours
how your smile makes me want to kill myself
how much i want to love you so hard
so hard, i will be so empty when i die
i want to love you deeply that when i die
there will be nothing left of me
i want to give you my all
but what if you never appreciate the love
what if
what........
if
....
it never is
©Christanee
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