every morning I wake up the devil likes to say hi with these nightmares and all these bad dreams nothing ever really looks like what it seems with Darkness around every corner the demons in my mind never quit even in my dreams to make my life miserable one minute I'm happy the next minute I'm suicidal after that I'm sad there's so many ups and downs it's like my mood changes every jump on a trampoline not sure if it's guilt not sure if it's heartache not sure if it's a shame the only thing that makes sense it's not fucked up I take the meds the doctor gives me it drives me close to insane you know I feel a little better nothing can take away the pain what all have you done to me hurt me over so many years without a care in the world none of you want to see me happy and just want to see me hurt what's funny is I know I'm a mistake and have been since the day I was born.
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