The love you seek , have I not loved you that way.
Do you not think I'm capable?
Intensity, sensitivity, positivity, negativity
6 months till the new year
An all I've been chasin is confusion, inconsistency, incontinuity.
Whose stupid?
I feel we both know the answer.
I do better without you.
When I'm minding mi business the demons I've befriended
remind me of you.
How they touch me seductively,
in seclusion.
In the public of my heart of what I been trying to convince my mind that it's real.
It's all an illusion, delusion, feels like an illness of how foolish I know I'm not stupid.
Feels so uncomfortable living in an imaginary dream so lucid.
I'm tryna find mi purpose
While purposely taking time off
An it resulted In exactly what i expected but not how i expected.
I heard what you said an i was dealing with it.
I know you heard yourself but you still back tracked.
I've even made statements thinking you would get it.
But you wasnt getting it.
So I took it as make a pass
All the time I thought you just didn't catch it
You really just wasnt with it.
Now it's clear.
No matter who or what was the convenience.
You and I will always be right here.
©porsha..
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