Yesterday was Valentine's day. I learned a lot. I promise that one person I will find my truth. But I have to learn to put myself first. My first love is me. How can I love you? If I don't love myself. Trying to find the best of me. The only thing I see is fear. Fear to get my heartbroken. Only time can tell. To him to make that choice. Two roads to follow. Which one he will? Should be an easy decision. To follow your heart. Your heart is deep down to your soul. But it is hard to keep safe from you. When you try to keep your gear up. Be that man I fall in love with. That care men. Who show me that love is real. But now I second guess myself. I see we can go further. But you are stand tell. I want more. I want to grow as a person. Where that man who will drop everything for me. Now you said you are good. But I am a butterfly who needs to separate my wing. I need to start a new chapter in my life. I want a romantic story. So tired put me last and now trying to put me first. Without feeling guilty by your look. So yes my first love is me. Tell trying to love me first. Before I can give you my own. But I the one can read your mind. I want to make you laugh. But I am not the one who won't close the chapter in your life. That will put opposed direction. I am ready for a change. you are happy as it is. I want to do something different, But afraid of one person trip. But my heart said following your heart. I will follow my heart. My first love is me. To follow the direction my angel to go. When you use to show me and prove it. Now it is all talk and no action. No nothing from you. Now it is time to give me everything I drive. To put me first. It is a work in progress. Tell then I will be working on me. Getting ready for the next chapter of my life. Hope one day you will see the truth meeting of love. The love we have to do as grow. I don't want to take this journey alone. But you need to take that step. Or the boat will pass you by. I have to put myself first so I can grow as a person. So I hope you look in the mirror-like yourself. Is are loved worth fighting for. or I will be on one personal journey. Love will have to find me. You will have to climb that mountain to get to me. This is something you have to do to prove to me. So are love can grow as one. So you will be the one. You will be my first love and my only one.
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