Hey ..
uhh.. its me ..
listen
I have to say something very important with you
I don't know where to start
Im feeling so nervous at the moment
My hands are shaking ,
Uh Its my third time that I'm recording this
i have no clue if i could complete this or not , but i can't take this for too long
I have to share something with you
When it was within myself its so obnoxious feeling inside
And now when I'm trying to expose it feels uncomfortable .
Why I'm being so pretendable ?
Listen I really doubt if it is a good question or not
Why I'm being so discomfited but so possesed with you ?
Why I'm being so introvert when I see you .
And Im sorry though
I didn't react properly ; i didn't approach properly
I know its a mistake
But I'm so confused
Its a chaos in my mind , my heart says a different thing and my mind didn't agree with that
What should i do ?
it is none of your concern but i don't have any idea why I'm telling this
Although I didn't want to break a relation what we have right now
Im feeling so supressed
i dont know what you think when you get this message
why Im feeling this ?
there's no reason though if you ask me why i love you
I really don't have
i know for you circumstances really matter
and i love to be on your zone but i don't know why my feelings don't think its a legit way to deal with and
you know what ?
it is trying to create another state of affair .
I just can't get rid of this
And i really don't want to
I have a fear from how long these inunment of thoughts are with me
to accumulate this gesture is really hard for me
But really appreciate your positivity towards me ,
Hope you understand my side of thoughts
and its okey if you don't .
I really do appreciate both of your sides.
I know i feel devastated if you ignore and if you don't want to be on that circumstances
But its a part of life
Before this i have a completely different defination of peace i thought inner peace can't exist
Peace is part of ignorance but now i miss your tantrum ; i miss your quarrel ; i miss that enthusiastic part of life where you get excited at any point on the moment with no reason .
Its getting too long
i will wait for your reply please do without any hesitation .
Lastly what i wanna say is I love you.
I really do.
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