As I try and let you go I see what I hold on to,
I see what makes me keep falling for the idea of you,
I've wanted to prove myself to you for so long,
That it's kept me going and kept me strong,
The idea of your love felt once more in my heart,
Has kept me from allowing myself to fall apart,
All the while I know it's a love waited in vain,
Cause every time I get close to you I end up in pain,
Im fighting to let go of you and parts of myself as well,
It seems the only way through my heart's gate of hell,
So many parts of you have come to be parts of me,
Does that make it impossible for me to ever be free,
As I try and let you go I see what I hold on to,
The only thing I'll ever have is just the idea of you,
I have to figure this out and sever this connection,
Cause loving you like this has become an infection.
©justin_ur
J