I look around in disbelief,
still groggy from my sleep.
I blink again, nope it's real.
I don't quite know how to feel.
But, Just a few years ago,
I'd of laughed, and said, "HELL NO"!
My life is fine, it's on track,
Rest assured, don't worry, That's a fact.
I sigh, and Yet, Here I am.
WHAT THE FUCK, NOT AGAIN, I'LL BE DAMNED!
I've been here already, long ago,
Swore, never again, I promised though.
In a rage, I jump up screaming,
destroying everything, not believing.
I can't go thru this shit again.
The pain, it's to much, it never ends.
Just let me go back to sleep.
To get lost in random dreams.
Pain and Loneliness, will cease,
And forever.....let me Rest in Peace!!.
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