A lot of people think they know me, but I guarantee they don’t. They won’t ever know me because, everyday I wake up a new me- with new challenges, problems, perspectives and ways of happiness.
Have you ever felt such Suppressing-Anxiety, you’d do anything to make the attack stop? But instead you’re overpowered- searching for more power because you don’t want to be stuck in your bed. Anxiety having you lost in your head?
Have you ever felt such Depression, on your face is its deepest impression? So sick of being sad, you’d rather be mad? Now are you trying to deal with your aggression, which’ll circle back to your depression?
Have you ever felt the combination of both, Anxiety and Depression? These Demons do a hell of a job of metaphorically tieing you down to your bed and making sure you’re completely lost in your head! But in all reality metaphors don’t hurt, but these Demons want you to take them very literal.
At this point you must have given your Anxiety and Depression a name, this will keep you from going insane. I have, my Anxiety and Depression are known as AD, (After Death) because that’s when they said, they’ll set me Free!
I won’t lie, I’ve thought about this rope and how to tie… I’ve thought about my Life and this sharp Knife. These visions flooded my mind like a never ending river, keeping me binded on a tightrope between life and death.
Don’t worry though I’m still here… I’m still here because I shouted, Fuck that Fuck That FUCK! This sharp knife, I didn’t take my Life. But this invisible Rope which was binding me down to my bed, fucking caged in my head; I was able to break myself Free! Darkness surrounded me, but I never gave up on the spark of Light within me!
I broke Free and ran to the woods. The woods is where I was able to ground myself and find peace within myself. The next time Anxiety and Depression come knocking at my door, I’m going to shout, Fuck That! And walk it off. Anxiety-Depression be gone! Because I won’t ever lose control again, I won’t ever become lost in my head again! These are my thoughts and I’m in control again!
R