I really try to feel fine but I dont though.
I want to fast forward time but it won't go.
I need the ganja and maybe some sage .. need both at the same time just to ease these demons astray.
I Wana feel fine , tired of all the whispers and side staring eyes ... I want to scream . I can't and I don't know why ...
she's so sad , stay away from her shes disturbed , you're so beautiful yet broken, you have to toxic since you can't be open , why so dark and set in a monotone ....all the black is ugly try on some better clothes, "she needs therapy , one day she will kill someone she's scary" , that's how the world perceives me and I'm baracated in that box forsaken for being different and not happy and merry ...I just wish they would let me shut the top and let me be buried.
I really want to feel fine , but now it's feeling less and less like a want more like need . need because if I I don't put more pressure on I will bleed and leave my body ...not a solid body anymore a floating carbon copy.
and the choir will sing while my momma and sister read my obituary...needing to feel fine is indefinitely a must , it's so hard to stay leveled
storms and floods everyday with a bookbag full of cracked stones , had it on for way to long my back bends and my spine is broken , legs disjointed , my feet are swollen. this bag of secretscan no longer keep open.
I have to feel fine
I need to feel fine
or the storm will finally cafch up and I will be lost and washed at the shore line
....everyone knows if you don't bring your umbrella you get wet, and you never leave your windows open...always layer your clothes and wear a hat ..I didn't so I'm sick and my throat won't open.
©scorpio
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