There you are again, my old unwavering friend. Your scars and far gazing eyes give you away.
You've taken form of another, which I know you often do, but your war-torn poise always stays the same.
What is that you're saying? It keeps echoing in my mind, you've fallen down and need me once again?
I'll be honest, I haven't missed you, rather the horrors that you bring. Frankly I'm beaten down.
One more time for honor? For more medals and for fame? I do not feel I share the same lust.
Yes I hear you, don't remind me. I know it's all the same and in the end I realize we're all dust.
No, it's over. I have finished. I carry the white flag now, I've been forgiven of my wretched ways.
Oh so you've seen it, heard it? Well I'm glad that it's found you. I've gone sleepless too many nights, too many days.
There's no answer I can give you, there's no reason for this change. Just know I'm doing what I feel is right.
Don't hear the screaming? The yelling? The crying out in pain? Well I do, in the silence and even late at night.
Please just leave me, I've told you, I'm nowhere near the same. I have found serenity in life.
This time you walk alone, down this path. You do this without me. I have a daughter, a son and a wife.
Coward, you call me? Who brought you all that joy? Who helped you feed life after painful life?
Emptiness is what you've given me, everything is what you took and now that I'm at peace, you call me back?
Hatred, disgust, that's all I feel for you. But at the same time I pity all the pleasures that you lack.
Compassion you don't know, love you'll never feel, consuming is all you've ever known.
It's over, as I told you, I'm taking back the wheel and I'm driving out the evil we've sown.
Release me, wicked creature. Quit trying to hide all we've done. We were ordered "do what you have to do"
Unhand me, soulless monster, our battle is far from won. Back to the front lines it seems for me and you.
You win this time, you caught me. Again we ride to battle, to slay another in a foreign land.
This is the last time, I vow this, to you I make this creed. Once this war ends, I'll have my peace at hand.
©jarnmarr
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