I cried so much I couldn't open my eyes
I cut so much I couldn't move
I cut on old wounds
I cried till my body shook and ached
I hurt so much my heart gave up
I hurt so much my love turned to pain
I felt so guilty so I let it burn
I felt so guilty life seemed meaningless
I felt it all at once
My heart broke down
My stomach turned
My hands shook
My cries turned into screams
Begging and pleading
This was the last fight
Trying and failing till I felt numb
I fought and fought
Now I sit and wonder what's next
Is happiness just a day dream
Is joy just a myth
Was the kindness ever real
©shanice
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